I can’t say that I don’t think of you from time to time,
because I do.
I wonder what you’re doing, if you’re happy..where life has led you.
It doesn’t hurt anymore, because I had to make peace with what happened a long time ago.
We can’t change the past, and I wouldn’t, even if I could.
We were never meant to make it, I know that now, even if I cried so many nights over losing you..losing us.
But the more time that passed, the less it hurt..until now, the pain is gone.
Of course, I’m still a little wistful about what happened and the end, but that’s done now.
I’ll never stop loving you- you’ll always have a place in my heart..
Just not my life.
Truth is, that was the hardest lesson of all- learning to love myself more to know what I deserve.
I knew I was worth so much more than what you gave me- time, respect, love..and ultimately, that’s why I left.. you could never be what I needed nor give me what I deserved.
You didn’t leave me a choice when you treated me the way you did.
I had to go my own way and find my own happiness..I was never going to find it with you. I don’t even know if you’ll ever find that peace, but that’s not my battle anymore.
I had to lose you to find myself and it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me.
So, if the phone ever rang and your name showed up, I’d just let it go to voicemail.
You’ll always be part of my past..
And my past has nothing new to say to me.
I’m focused on my future, so I’m not looking back.
I love myself more now than I ever did, so thank you..
Thank you for setting me free to find who I truly was capable of becoming.
It’s ironic how the biggest pain can end up being the largest blessing..
I’m thankful for the broken roads, shattered hearts and hard journey that made me who I am..
And I wouldn’t change a thing..
It’s made me stronger, wiser and now, happier than I’ve ever been before.
|ravenwolf