They convinced you that you weren't enough. That you had to "try harder" to be "better", like a photoshopped version of yourself. You didn't want to listen, but the constant criticism creeped in and no matter how hard you tried you couldn't reach that idealized version of you that would make them happy.

So,
you decided
to embrace the chaos.

You weaved bits of yourself back into your world. You left that messy pile alone, because every mess is unique, while organization is predictable. You embraced the unpredictable. You became wild in ways that meant something to you. You took your real self back. Perfect was stifling; you couldn't breathe over there. You found your way to imperfection and beautiful chaos. You built rooms for it in your psyche. You allowed your soul to breathe, to play, to make messes...you allowed your inner child to roam free, with dirt-stained cheeks and messed up hair.

That's when your realized that the most beautiful, wild and inspiring people have one thing in common: they embrace their own chaos and define their own beauty.

Happiness is not something that you can find, acquire, or achieve directly. You have to get the conditions right and then wait.
Some of those conditions are within you, such as coherence among the parts and levels of your personality. Other conditions require relationships to things beyond you: Just as plants need sun, water, and good soil to thrive, people need love, work, and a connection to something larger.
It is worth striving to get the right relationships between yourself and others, between yourself and your work, and between yourself and something larger than yourself. If you get these relationships right, a sense of purpose and meaning will emerge. ~Jonathan

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I can’t say that I don’t think of you from time to time,
because I do.
I wonder what you’re doing, if you’re happy..where life has led you.
It doesn’t hurt anymore, because I had to make peace with what happened a long time ago.
We can’t change the past, and I wouldn’t, even if I could.
We were never meant to make it, I know that now, even if I cried so many nights over losing you..losing us.
But the more time that passed, the less it hurt..until now, the pain is gone.
Of course, I’m still a little wistful about what happened and the end, but that’s done now.
I’ll never stop loving you- you’ll always have a place in my heart..
Just not my life.
Truth is, that was the hardest lesson of all- learning to love myself more to know what I deserve.
I knew I was worth so much more than what you gave me- time, respect, love..and ultimately, that’s why I left.. you could never be what I needed nor give me what I deserved.
You didn’t leave me a choice when you treated me the way you did.
I had to go my own way and find my own happiness..I was never going to find it with you. I don’t even know if you’ll ever find that peace, but that’s not my battle anymore.
I had to lose you to find myself and it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me.
So, if the phone ever rang and your name showed up, I’d just let it go to voicemail.
You’ll always be part of my past..
And my past has nothing new to say to me.
I’m focused on my future, so I’m not looking back.
I love myself more now than I ever did, so thank you..
Thank you for setting me free to find who I truly was capable of becoming.
It’s ironic how the biggest pain can end up being the largest blessing..
I’m thankful for the broken roads, shattered hearts and hard journey that made me who I am..
And I wouldn’t change a thing..
It’s made me stronger, wiser and now, happier than I’ve ever been before.
|ravenwolf

🇸🇳 𝐒𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐨 𝐌𝐚𝐧𝐞: "I don't see myself better than anyone. I just go there and do my job well. I am constantly worried about the next meal for the people of my village in Senegal. This is why I have to always be at my best on the pitch to not lose my place." 🔥